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Hello Journal,

Well since my internet sucks, I uploaded only my favorite picture of the batch, lol, me drinking, ALRIGHT! Mickeys is my favorite beer.

Some old news, but good news, I finally got off my fatt ass and sent in a few poems, and got a letter back from one magazine saying they'll publish one of my poems. "Loves Chance" Magazine, some obscure publication coming out of Massachusetts. But Hey! At least I took the first step into becoming a actual writer.

My dream is to be a author, since writing is the only thing I do well, let alone the only real thing I do besides crossdress, but I don't really want to sell that, lol. I'm actually trying to write a book, the last book in a thrilogy, I'm publishing it out of order to at least be semi orignial, being that the first book is that last, the second is the first, and the second is the last, but don't worry the way I'm doing it it will all make sense.

But I don't know if I'll ever get there... I'm ambitious but freaking lazy. And if not lazy, I'm just so nit picky, that I spend three days writing a paragraph. So far everyone who has read what I have like it, and keep on telling me to just write it out and get it sold, but I can only bring myself to write a little bit everday, only after I went through what I have to make slight corrections, and review.

Anyways, that's all I have to say about that.

Bye for Now

Cricket

Hello Journal <3

Well I'm watching over the my parents house for the next two days, flying up to see my brother, who is doing really well. He completed boot camp, and also combat training and got his language of Korean which is really good. All he needs to do now is to learn to langauge which shouldn't be to hard since hes really good at picking up on stuff like that. He's already fluent in spanish and japanese, Korean should be a breeze.

The second time this summer being asked to house sit, once for my friend, and now this, I've decided to take advanage of the time. Call me weird but I spent the whole time dressed up and drinking over at my friends house, it felt kinky, not that I'm not already hideously kinky, but it just felt like something I needed to do. I produced some fairly good pictures that I will more likely post someday. But this time I'm going to practice to art of suduction for Tessa, now very pleased with my looks. My hairs finally long enough to my satifcation that I will no longer have to wear a wig. No doubt a relief for Tessa that I'm finally able to throw out that tangled ratty thing, that never does stay on my head. 

So yep, just me and Cricket my cat I'm suppose to watch for the next two days, free food, cheap beer, and an amazing air conditioner, its 110 here, Though I do miss Tessa which is why I'm up at 3 AM.

Oh and I finally saw Harold and Kumar 2 now that its at the dollar theater and I had some time, you got to love the Unicorn, and it was the first time me and Tessa have gone out since I started seeing single digits in my bank account.

Bye for Now!

Heart Broken

Hello Journal,

Today my older brother left for Boot camp, hes joining the Marines, and will be serving for the next 5 years. Since he enlisted, I've been nothing but supportive, but now that hes finally left, my hearts been breaking inside. I'm mad, and depressed, and really angry with myself for not seeing him off, disturbed, and feeling lonely, when I think about it I start to cry.

I may have never mentioned I had an older brother before, but I do. We may not get along to well, but when we were little, during the divorce, going back and forth between parents, never knowing what was happening, I knew that no matter what, he'd always be there. The only curtainty I ever had as a child. I just can't help but feel lost. He's going to be some sort of criptoligest or something, so I guess he won't be in any danger, but still. I never really relized how much stock I put in him always being close by. I donno.

Things will work out, and five years isn't that long, and I know this is the best choice for him. But... I donno. Anyways, its pretty late.

Bye for Now.

A Perfect World

Hello Journal <3

I'm sorry I haven't updated in like forever, I know its been a while. Time gets the best of us all. I moved out with my girl friend, and though we do fight, I'm happy that I'm with her, because shes so amazing, and I love her so much.

I got a lot of new pictures, and a lot of new costumes, but unfortunately not a very good computer, so it might be a while before I can share, but I'm very happy with the results, and think I've achieved the right look finally in everything I wear, so I couldn't be more happy.

I think I'm going to start now dressing full time whenever I can. For at home purposes only. No outdoor stuff. Lol, not that my wardrobe alone will be well taken by todays society, lacking in some areas normals girls clothing. I sort of just recently fell into buying shoes, which I love, I have 3 pairs now, one white, one black with lepord print, and one thats pink and sparkley like princess shoes, all of them high heels.

Well, anyways, I guess thats all the news I have right now, in about a month I will be starting school again after taking a semester off, I'm really looking forward to it, I've become so damn lazy with no job, and nothing to do. So with that said, I guess I'll be off.

Bye For Now <3

4 Interviews For 1 Job, 2 Nights of Not Sleeping

Hello Journal,

Now as the clock counts down the finally minutes till 6, I find myself inflicted by innsominia  that has now eclipsed 2 days. Speaking of Eclipses, the moon full and brilliant vanished from the nights sky, to become brown as the lands of Africa, and to be circled by a ring of light.

I got an appartment today, or yesterday, I need sleep... I have my 4th interview for my supposive no problems ahead job. I hate politics in a work place, its not enough that its shoved down my throat by the TV everyday.

In 4 or 5 days I will be living in a 3rd home. I had 2, my mother and father, I leave them only partically behind.

I'm tired, but can't sleep, I feel sick and sticky. I'm drinking lots of water, which leads me to stand exahusted in front of a toliet seat. I may crossdress, but I refuse to sit down.

800 something a month for the appartment, I am lucky I am crazy. I'm stealing away all your hard earned tax paying dollars 42 years before most people my age can. Don't ask me why, I blame the system, but I don't complain much because who would, money is the american dream.

Going to get 2 new costumes, 40% discount at 3wishes.com, don't miss it. It ends this month.

I'm going to try 1 last desperate attempt at sleeping, I don't want to go for four days. It hasn't happened for a while but just maybe, I will eclipse my record and dread 5.